Over the past few weeks and months I have moved closer and closer to my religion. I always thought I knew it all, I always thought I had the capabilities to overcome anything in my path without looking to religion.
I was absolutely wrong
Had it not been for reading the bible, prayer and believing then I wouldn't have made it through the last 5 months. I've had so many downs and not many ups. Meeting Kendall to me now was clearly divine intervention. I never could meet someone so pure, so beautiful, so angelic on my own. I've asked The Lord to show me my path, to show me what to do and every night I dream of her in a white dress, I dream of kissing her lips and bonding with her through him. I can't ever lose my way again. I must now find my way back to god before she can find her way back to me. I love her absolutely and completely. I'm tired of the past frustration and anger and hurt. I'm vowing to never ever let that occur with her ever again. I'm determined to rebuild the foundation that was us. I'm no longer keeping score and holding onto hurt in my life from my past. She deserves a man who is free f a wavy heart. Opening up to my dad and telling him how I truly felt yesterday was the first time in my entire life that I felt at peace with him. I'm letting go of my baggage and allowing myself to move forward and love myself like beer before. Kendall is my Eve, my North Star, my Helen of Troy. For her I would climb the tallest mountain, walk through hell's hottest valley and trek through the coldest winter for her love. You are worth it baby and I love you so much and I'm so sorry that I caused what I caused. It will be better, that is a fact amongst facts. I am growing better as a man everyday. I can't wait to show you baby! You mean the world to me! I love you dearly! I'm so excited to see you once again. To start anew and show you the shape of my heart.
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