From now on

From now on, I'm going to listen to the entire song before posting it on any site rather than the first chorus. Usher you fooled me this time but not again. I listened to that song just now and it's not what I thought it was! You can't do that Mr. Raymond, not cool.
That wasn't a representation of how I feel past that first chorus. That second verse I do not condone. And I put that song on a CD :/ listen to all others EXCEPT that one, lets just mulligan that one off the disc.
I want this, I want this more than anything. I'm willing to work my tail off for it. You're worth it babe. I can show you things you didn't think I'd ever be able to. I can go out and eat things you wouldn't guess I'd eat or try. I just wanna take you out on the town, show you all the things I've learned about me, about you, about us. I want to actually continue to wear pants to class everyday. It's been weird but I actually like it. I want to revamp my entire wardrobe. I need to start dressing more fittingly and stop looking like a bum. Why would you want to go out on a date with me in Nike shorts and a hoodie? That's not ok. I'm going to fix that.
Baby I miss you, your side of the bed is so cold, your pillow is so lonely. Your baby is lonely. I want you in my arms, all day, all night I want to start over and work to earn your heart back until its right.
I hate sleeping without you, it feels so unnatural. I have so much I want to tell you, so many things I want to discuss but I can't yet. That day is coming and I can see it now. No more envisioning, I can see it.
I'm closer to being the man in the chair more than ever. Yesterday started out well, had a double counseling session and got a lot out and off my chest. There's a lot of difference in the me I was when I got there and the me that was there yesterday. Dr. S noticed, and others are starting to as well.
I'm calm, no longer are anger and pain my steroids. They no longer get me through the day. I can truly say I haven't been angry in weeks. I haven't and it feels so weird to have all of this free space, all of this clear thought and conviction. I'm doing things out of love not out of fear, pain, anxiety or anger. It's profound. Kendall Rae I love you so much baby. Everything that I was, is gone and in the past. It truly has no factor in me now. I'm in control, I'm capable. I love the man I have become. I love it. I love you. Not a second goes by that you aren't on my mind.

"Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right."