The Man after the Monster

I'm no longer the monster in the corner, I'm the man in the room. I've found a way to open the door and leave it open without fear of the monster coming out. The monster is defeated. The key to overcoming that was to release the anger, pain, the hurt and the fear I lived with for all of those years. Instead of driving myself through anger and hatred, I drive myself to be better through love, through life.
So much has changed, so much has shifted. It hasn't come without opposition or doubt but I did it and I'm proud of myself for it. My ideologies have shifted, my perspectives have sharpened and my soul is calm, the battle is over and I made it out. I came back.
I can't even listen to certain rap songs anymore because they're too crass, too angry. It's just too much for me now. Cussing, carrying on like a primitive ape, it's all just too much. I'm at peace within my mind, my soul. I don't carry a of the daemons that plagued me and drove the people I love most away. I'm seeing now that I must stay this course because anything less than fighting for myself is paramount to accepting that I cannot change even though the man in the mirror is different from the thing I refused to look at for so long. I'm still remorseful and I'm so sorry for the way I was before. But that doesn't define me, that isn't who I am and not who I will ever be again. I'm better than I ever was.
I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. That monster is buried.

I'm better than I ever was. And I'm proud to be able to finally say that. It took longer than I would've wanted. It took longer than many would've wanted but I'm here. I'm ready for the fight and I'm preparing for a new beginning because its going to be grand. It's going to be the most beautiful thing you ever did see. Love is the mortar, life is the canvas. Lets create something rare.