The truth

I was living so wrong, I hurt her and others around me that I love, like her family. I wasn't right for so long. All she thinks is the problems we had will resurface. Not this time. Not after the journey I've undertaken. I used to dream of football and the NFL then I got here and I realize what god was showing me. She's my dream, my plan my goal. Having a family with her, being a husband. Settling down in a great place to raise children, having children. Providing for them. God led me straight here to her for a reason. I now see his plan unfolding right in front of me. God took college football away from me to show me that that 3 year career isn't for me. FAMILY, life after the whistle is what matters. I'm getting help for me primarily but is he lying if I said she wasn't a reason. Her love is salvation. She is the angel god sent me to cherish and work tirelessly to prove that I can be, I can do and I can improve. She has made me WANT to be a better person, she makes me want to learn to hunt, to off road, to indulge in all things that she knows and loves. It's not me shaping my life around her, she is the rock I have built my world around. Life is nothing without love. Her love is supernatural, her love is like getting a hug from god directly. Kendall Rae Vickers is the one, the only, the future. I love you so much baby. My prayers were answered. I now have understanding and power over my past, I have let it go. My past pain, burdens and suffering kept me from progressing into the man I want to be for you and for myself. You are the best. I want to show you that we can have a storybook love like Noah and Allie. That we can have a big screen connection like Leo and Paige. God has made me a lucky man to have the chance to earn your love and to earn a place in the future of the Vickers family. I love your mother Susan ad your father Loren. I want to go hunting with your brothers Brandon and Carter, I want to surprise you and your sisters with spa days and show you all that you are beautiful, amazing women. I want to love your nieces and nephews. All I need is the opportunity to show the content of my soul, to experience the rebirth I have come to. It's all you baby. You brought this me out of the shell, from behind the mask and I can't love you enough for it. Right now you think it's bleak. You don't think it will happen or work but I have the best counselor on my side, god. He has already worked wonders over me and the person that I was as opposed to the person that I am. If we allow him to be the third strand in our new, improved, better than ever relationship we will never falter again. I love you bug. I can't wait to see you!