The last week

I haven't posted on here because I have had a life changing week. My moods have become more regulated and I have been able to see through many things I hadn't seen before. I AM in control! I can't remember a time in my life where I mentally and emotionally had this much control. I am a completely different person when I look in the mirror and I love it! I love my life and where it's headed. Only one thing is missing and god is helping me fix that. God works in mysterious ways and I am living proof! He didn't give up on me when there were times I wanted to give up on myself. He loved me through times when I didn't love myself. But he has shown me the path to betterment, to becoming a man, to earning the love back that is life altering. Yes Kendall Rae I'm talking about you babe! I love you so much, it's the sweetest thing. I know now what I must do. I understand how you feel toward the situation but if you have just the slightest faith in me and I can show you what an amazing life we can have together from now until the end of time. You're more than a woman, you are family, you are love, truth, purity, my Helen of Troy. You are the woman I want to parent children with, that I want to go on lake trips with, that I want to love beyond all definitions of love. It's not that I need it, I want it. I want you for the rest of my life to wake up everyday knowing that you have a MAN that will break his body and spirit to make sure that you want for nothing, that you are fulfilled, appreciated and made happier through every day. I know it's taken long but this is gods work and this is a masterpiece he has worked up. I can't wait to talk to you!