Turned the corner

Today, I went home. Not to a physical home, but to the place I needed to go. The sermon and service of today has truly and surely helped me turn the corner. The biggest message they hit home was live above the hurt, live with the past, not in spite of it. Forgive yourself and forgive those who have trespassed against you. For when you forgive yourself, you allow your heart to be free of burden and it allows you to love yourself. I can truly look myself in the mirror and say I love who in becoming. I'm not proud of who I was, but that boy is dead and gone. I am becoming the man I see that is capable of fixing this all.
"Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me. Lying on the floor, you found me." Kendall, you found me you helped me find me. And I love you so much. I love me so much.

For the first time in years I can say "I went home."

I never really understood sermons when I was younger and went to church, but I understand now. The wave of love and emotion I felt in that church was beyond all words. I cried time and time again. Every time I cried I felt my heart and mind loosen up. I've forgiven all the hurt, pain and baggage that I carried with me for far too long. All the baggage that I allowed to lay ruin to what I had with Kendall. But what I had with her is dead, I'm starting over anew. It is going to be a breathtaking love, a new beginning with the greatest outcome. I'm excited to talk to you again. I can't wait to show you the way I've learned to love.