The Time Draws Nearer

I have had a very breathtaking day. A great counseling session, then drove through Oak Creek to Sedona. It was my first time in that city and it was absolutely breathtaking. The red rocks and the canyon atmosphere was amazing. That was something you see in a movie, but don't ever think to see in real life. With every adventure I take through Northern Arizona, I grow to love it more and more. I can't wait to go to Olde town in Prescott and Cottonwood like I did today in Sedona. I saw this hilarious red full body longjohn that was in an old country store and I am going to buy it next time I head down. I want to go down there and do so much that I saw today and I am excited to venture down there again!
I want to build my future here and I can't wait to start building it and earning my place in this community. I didn't ever think I would find a place that changed how I thought about nature but this place makes me want to camp, fish, hunt. I want to learn the land and explore it like I haven't at any other time. I want to wear camo and actually feel like I have earned the right to wear it. I always thought I would end up being some big city, indoor hermit but now, after everything I've seen, the way in which my perspectives, values and dreams have shifted, I can't wait to take these adventures. Driving through the country has become my favorite activity. It is where I can listen to my favorite songs, turn the AC on and cruise until god tells me to head home. Love is life, life is love.
I cannot wait to build the life I see here. To grow and prove myself to the world, to nature and to the old ways of thinking. I want to live here and grow old in Flagstaff, my heart is here, my soul is here.
This is a reset. This is a second chance to earn it all. I love everything about Flagstaff. That day is coming. It is making sense here and now. It is right in sight and within grasp. It may not have made sense before this week but it is clear. It is a sign from god that it is the path, it is right, natural and pure. It is beautiful.
"The beauty we see around us reflects the beauty we see within ourselves. If we are beautiful on the inside, we can create beauty out of ugliness in our realities. We can construct and build where others may not see it. Doubt will fade and hesitance can be relieved. When you feel and see beauty, the things you see become more possible, less toxic and better then they ever were thought to be capable of being."