A letter to my Juliet

With everyday that goes by my heart yearns for you more and more. I did terrible unworthy things and I regret them everyday. My anxiety exercise went well this morning. I'm really dedicated to getting better. As for last night I made a decision to drink. It was a bad decision. I ended up passing out and I don't even remember the messages that I sent you. I, in all honesty am scared to read what they say. I missed the opportunity to talk to you and even now, at 845 am I'm beating myself up about it. Me trying to "let loose" last night backfired and I angered you more because I was not there. I prayed this morning and am now looking to hold faith in gods plan for you and for me. There is more here than love and attraction, I feel the divine touch he has placed on us. I'm on the road to becoming a stable, accountable man and I can't wait until I reach that destination because I am going to show you and prove to you that it is meant to work. That the hell I will go through to earn the respect of your family is not in vain. It is worth it to the umpteenth power. I love you and miss you and can't wait to talk to you.