What came time today

Today started out the same a yesterday. Really solemn and down. I felt myself sliding into a funk. Then I went to group, I've never been more renewed with motivation. I heard a story from one of the girls in the group and it completely put me into perspective, my situation and gave me the ability to see what I must do. The guy who sat next to me also helped me see some of myself. He spoke about the ways in which he struggled day to day with his depression and symptoms. I feel stronger now that there is another person with Borderline in the group. She didn't say anything last week but she revealed to me that she did. I'm not alone, I'm not crazy. There are other people here that are dealing with the same things. They have me advice on how to approach things with Kendall. On what to do with my life as a whole. On how to regulate, cope, how to work my way through my swings and dips. Her story about how she pushed her boyfriend away, he couldn't speak to her. She didn't have contact with him. How he became cold after warming up and stayed cold for a while, then he, after time, came to her and listened. He opened up to her. He had a relationship in between that time. She said it felt "cruddy" to hear that and that it was hard for her to maintain his attention because he was so skeptical and didn't even know if she would get him back. But she got him back. And they've been better. That's what I want. I want to work timelessly to prove to Kendall that I'm the man she envisions. I love her. I want a love like Johnny and June. I'm off to do my exercises and read. I will be back. I will be better.