What about us?

I don't believe in people like I used to. I used to believe that people inherently knew when something was right, or when something was wrong. I used to think that they were creatures beyond capable of building trust over the course of time. But as I venture out more and more into the realm of my age group I see that this is ultimately a falsehood. The people in my age group aren't about the things that I value. Rather than face constant rebuttal from my peers for standing on the opposing side if this casualization, I have disguised myself as a happy member of this demographic. I hope and wish for waking up next to one person everyday. I detest interacting just to "fuck". I'm not built that way. Forcing myself to participate gets harder and harder each time. I care about people by default, which comes back to bite me in the ass. I'd rather care for someone and be there in the ups and downs rather than be there for some selfish, self serving, sex-centric reason. 

It seem like every girl I encounter is "not looking for anything". I'm not looking for anything either. But I haven't cut my mind, heart and soul off of the idea that something could prosper and develop right in front of my eyes. 

I don't know what happened to our generation, or how our minds were trapped in the way that they were, but I hope and pray that one day we can capture that magic back in the capsule that generations before is passed down. Relationships are work, projecting them, progressing them and cultivating them. It's hard to put yourself into that vulnerability. But without that vulnerability, we are voiding out lives of something that words can't accurately articulate. 

My generation suffers from an epidemic of narrowing our perspective and closing our minds and souls off from the thing that could transform the world we see daily. Trust is the cure, but no one is willing to work on the medicine.