I've begun to see my castle walls come down, I've slowly but surely through my streak of February and early March, seen that the other side will always be the more beneficial side. I long for commitment and for consistency but I wasn't committed or consistent to anything myself. It took my quite some time to figure it out for a whole new time. But I am damn sure I did. The last year of my life I've not been me. I haven't genuinely smiled, I haven't felt that warmth and wholeness that I had become accustomed to.
I had lost myself in the race to save myself.
It's an eerie yet amazing feeling to have that shift in paradigm and in perspective, to actually feel yourself turn a corner. I see before me the road to everything I've ever wanted and wished for. Now the difficult part is awakening a part of me again that was buried under all the rubble of everything I've been through and all the pain that overwhelmed my heart, mind, body and soul.
It's a different step, but it's a step in the right direction.
Now I have to work on the most important factor of things. P.P.C
Projection, Progression and Cultivation
Projection: project this girl into every phase of your life, see how she sinks or swims with family, friends, your lifestyle, your goals and wants.
Progression: you begin building something larger. You start dating and working on getting to know her ins and outs, her fears and loves. You have to work your ass off in the progression phase; it's the hardest for a reason.
Cultivation: you have worked and worked, and now you are able to make this more than a relationship. You give her that commitment that only few can give. You show her throughout a lifetime that she's been worth it. You cultivate your hard work and watch the true fun begin
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