Boundaries

Never in my life have I struggled with such brazen disregard in my life. At every fork in the road there's a pushing effect that propels me in the wrong direction. 

I'm on a path that I've never seen taken in my life. He only male in my entire family to have a child and be there for them is a huge responsibility. I care about this little baby more than I've ever cared about anything ... I'll turn into Afghanistan to protect her, from all things. 

I think that the way to utterly disrespect someone is to disobey their wishes for their young child. Not to wait for the most opportune time to go against it. 

Right now, I feel as angry as I could possibly feel because of that and it makes me genuinely mad that once again what is wanted by those who have a say is ignored. I want to just scream and yell, but today, Moreso than any other days is teaching me not to do that. 

I'm trying to learn and grow, I just wish others would try the same.