Crushed

I feel so disenfranchised it's ridiculous. From the start ... This was supposed to be an experience that I felt fully immersed in. However, I feel the opposite of that. She's allowed her to overstep her boundaries, question every single thing I say and do and to undercut me and completely make me feel obsolete. 

It fucking pisses me off that for months I've been saying this is how I'm feeling and I'm never taken seriously. If I speak up, and say what I think right now I'm going to be even more of an outsider than I am now. 

I don't think it's fair that she continues to do this and no one will stand up and see my side. 

The very thing I've been preparing my whole life for was fatherhood, and I feel that it has been completely stolen from me in nearly every aspect. It's a heartbreak that I can't explain. Every experience diluted and forcibly shared rather than cherished and done my way. 

You see world, you're no good.